Tuesday, April 7

I can't sleep, for varying reasons ranging from not getting a response to worrying about things and finally, to lack of company. I think I should sleep, so I wouldn't be letting my thoughts drift away.

I had a weird dream last night, or rather just the morning before. I was crying. I can't remember what about though, but the point was that it was just myself and no one else.

Having read the last few lines that I wrote, I think I really do need to sleep.

Am I being willful, or am I just trying to catch up with time?

Posted by Isabelle at 3:35 AM

Monday, April 6

I'm going to spend the last few weeks of my life in hall in solitude, then finally fade away as my remaining days run out and I silently creep out of uni life.

Emo, I know.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:27 PM

Thursday, March 26

I left this blog page open for the past half an hour, but nothing really comes out. I meant to type something out just so that I can get it out of me, but really, no words can describe how I feel right now.

An impending sense of loss, coupled with some loneliness. Emo. Sigh.

Posted by Isabelle at 1:49 AM

Thursday, March 19

I'm three weeks away from exams, which mean another month or so from moving out of hall and going back to my life four years ago. A lot of things will change.

I'm going to start work, something which I want to do as soon as possible, but at the same time not looking forward to it. (Contradictory, I know.)

One thing for sure, I'm not really looking forward to moving back home. For various reasons.

Posted by Isabelle at 2:08 AM

Tuesday, February 3

25 random stuff about me, something I did on facebook:

1. I love my birthday date, coz it's America's independence day. Haha.

2. I don't want to get addicted to mj, but I can't help it. *quits gambling*

3. I had asthma when I was a kid. I still remember the blue inhaler Ventolin.

4. I love to game. In fact, I saved up and bought my own first comp and PS2 console. On that note, I love the Final Fantasy series. I used to love Squall, but that was in the past when I was young and infatuated.

5. I sometimes wonder why I have a LOT more guy friends than girl friends, and I would want to try to tilt the ratio but currently to no avail.

6. I'm an only child, which makes it kinda lonely sometimes.

7. My dad is not around in Singapore... for quite a while already. Half my family (dad's side) is in Kuching, Malaysia.

8. I'm closer to my dad's side of the family.

9. I actually wanted to study Accountancy. Somehow I ended up here in Chem Eng.

10. I think I'm destined to be stuck on Jurong Island.

11. I love to bake. Cheesecake's my favourite!

12. I love to sing. Chinese, english, no matter.

13. I have a grade 8 piano cert, but I always felt that it's a fake, since my skills suck. I failed once, passed on my 2nd try. That's how sucky it is.

14. I have a slight phobia of taking the driving test. I haven't been able to pass since, and I wonder when I will try again.

15. My best friend has been my bestie since sec 1.

16. I always wanted an older brother. I think.

17. I love animals. Hamsters, cats, dogs, you name it.

18. I can't drink for nuts. 2 mixers max, and I'm done for. Beer's worse. Half a mug and I'll be hurling into the drain. I think I'm allergic to alcohol.

19. I want to go Japan. I've been learning Japanese just for this.

20. I'm absent-minded. I have short-term memory. My mum has been nagging me for years about this.

21. I have a thing for grammar. I can't help but want to edit people's misspellings, even if I don't say it out.

22. I love gadgets. I want to remodel my desktop once I get out of school, get a new 22-inch flatscreen... blah. *needs money*

23. I used to update my blog quite frequently, but posts have since dwindled because I seem to be blogging the same things.

24. I have amassed quite a number of soft toys on my bed, contributed mostly by 1 person.

25. (Last, at last.) I can't seem to grasp the fact that I'm graduating.

Posted by Isabelle at 2:45 PM

Monday, January 19

I don't think I can ever get rid of my blog. I can ignore it for short periods of time, but sooner or later I'd have to come back to twiddle a little, and this is one of those moments.

I started my new year without a glitch. Minor bumps here and there, but nothing I can't manage. As usual, I'm still living in a world of my own. I am conscientiously placing myself within circles of people, but somehow, there are always these few sparse moments of solitude, and all of a sudden it feels empty.

Being alone for some time breeds brooding. I wonder how Chinese New Year this year would turn out to be. It's a different feeling, different atmosphere, although most of it stays the same.

Posted by Isabelle at 2:53 AM

Monday, December 29

Yes, exam results are out and my results have seriously hit rock bottom the first time in NTU, which means that I have fallen out of the 1st Class region and I'm hovering mid of 2nd Class. Not that I'm sad or anything. I expected my results. I just didn't expect them to suck so bad. I think it's just the shock of seeing my results. I'm still taking everything in. At least I didn't fail. Wahaha.

Yes, finally. I'm coming to an end of my study life.

I'm emotionless, currently. Wait till everything sets in, then I'll probably be a little upset over my grades. Will get over it though. Small glitch to my plans.